205 lbs.!!!! So if all goes according to schedule, I'll break through to 199 in a week...when I feel the real work will begin. The MENTAL work. The work that includes addressing the fear around gaining back the weight, maintaining the new way of 'being' with food, and who will I be now, with being overweight no longer a part of my identity...
So, Richard is thinking (and saying!) that I'm looking HOT (yay!) and it makes me all tingley inside. He's looking pretty hubba hubba himself and I want to make sure he knows it too! The emotion that comes up the most when I think about the years we spent SO unhappy, in autopilot, not sharing with each other, retreating into our own isolated camps, is profound SADNESS. I want to go back and give the 'old' us huge hugs and great compassion. We forgot how much we truly love each other. And now we are finding our way back to each other and Operation: Hot Couple is no small part of it.
Onwards and Downwards!
Jennifer
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